My mind wants to call this a U turn.
Except my heart whispers that it cannot go back and re-live that old story.
So, here I am.
I can feel my own 'reset button' breathing down my neck.
Urging me to push.
Urging me to take the necessary journey....inwards.
Urging me to stay with every feeling I've been trained to run from.
To just stay.
To know that I've come too far to repeat old stories.
Too far to stop growing.
And once again.
I ask.
Am I made for this?
Am I strong enough to fully journey inwards and touch down on this 'reset'?
I know my protective walls all too well.
The kicking and the screaming.
I have experienced bits and pieces of my puzzle over the years.
Seeing possibly how everything could connect
Seeing.....
but never fully touching.
Never quite connecting the wholeness of my own puzzle.
Of me.
Funny how we can feel our own acceleration in the midst of our biggest questions.
Accelerating into what I already know.
What I've always known, but couldn't yet live.
Until now.
I am the only one who can push this reset.
The comfort in that old story is outdated.
I know this reset is designed for a new level of comfort.
Comfort in the unimaginable.
Comfort as creator
Comfort in FULL magic.
Comfort in the lightness of my being.
Now, my mind begs me to turn around and to stop.
Haven't you done enough and inner work? Can't you just be happy with this?
The terror of what I might discover.
My fear is burning hotter than any hell I've imagined.
I can feel this small truth of terror rising inside of me.
Like some ignited spark gone wild.
Inside.
Here is where my fire rises unlike ever before.
The ignition I needed to fully go inwards for this reset.
I can see, feel and taste the flurry of stored memories tucked away.
And once again... I meet my core.
Except this time I quickly realize this is not a reset.
Reset implies coming back over and over again.
I AM here to take back.
To gather every last piece.
Take ALL of who I AM to the surface of my existence.
To saturate inside of my essence ...from my soul to my skin.
Connected wholeness now carries a new vibration.
A new meaning.
I no longer feel distant or separate from my dark treasures.
Experiences I ONCE lived that were still shaping my world today.
Those darker memories carried a heaviness that weighed on my soul.
Now, I can see.
I see that this continual soul searching was not supposed to take us away.
To look away.
The search was intended to take us back IN.
Inside.
To the places and spaces where we keep our greatest treasures.
Self preserved at a young age.
Waiting to be reclaimed.
The memory of our soul will never lie.
If we listen we can hear our souls truth.
We can tune into our souls frequency
Our minds.....
Well, my mind almost had me believing in the 'dark' story.
The story of broken, shame and fear.
Our light.
She is always waiting.
I've come to know there is a spark of light in every soul.
First though.
We must be willing to burn through the wick of our own candle to reach our core flame.
To go IN and reach the light that is waiting to reunite with our soul.
We are trained to run away and keep everything separate.
These days,
my soul's mission is to lead the way back in.
To use the power of our life giving breathe and the genius of our body's wisdom
to reunite our soul with our fire.
To introduce you to your own brilliance.
Introduce you to the light that is waiting inside of you.